Beautiful

And all I could think of is you . I'm dying for u when are u ever coming back ?:( here I am waiting each day to pass fast cause I'm looking forward for th day you'll text me and tell me ure coming again . Stop pushing me away your egoness used to trick me but not now and forever it will be baby . You're jus weak as usual and I could see through u clearly . I'll never stop trying till th day I see ure so over it . I'm sorry , I'm not a quitter and I'll never quit . Just like what you say ..

Past midnight , it's 9.11.11

Nothing can describe this feeling nothing can describe th moment nothing can explain how happy how thankful how heavenly I felt . Nothing. It was too good to even breathe a word to tell how great it felt like and how unbelievably happy I was . In fact I feel like I was th happiest girl on earth . Happiest girl on th nineth . Can't believe right infront of me I was seeing th angel of my life . It felt like a dream , likea dream come true . In fact I still think it was a dream cause it was too good to be true. I felt like as thou I was holding my breath th whole time didn't wanna hear any sound not even my own breathing but just hearing u speak so beautifully . Th words of th catch ups , th words turn to laughters. Th eyes that met alot of times pretending it was jus normal like how we used to . Th moment we were silently shut in a 'cage'. There my arms been grab so willingly , so lovingly , so caringly , so touchingly .I nearly fainted as it felt like throughout my whole entire life I've been waiting for this . Oh how could u be so perfect that I never thought u were human . Th eyes of an angel I miss , th touch of an angel I've longed for . It happened in a blink of an eye and now I'm jus thinking back to get myself into place and keep smiling like there is no tomorrow . You were perfectly fine, don't get frustrated over it , you were perfectly beautiful, your voice were perfectly sound . You are such a beauty that was too much to be seen but to feel it mentally and physically . Th night was th best night of my existence . Come again my angel , I've always been waiting and always will be and forever for as long I breathe.

Damn damn damn what I'd do o have you here?;(

Well I seriously wish I could tell him how much I still love him so thou but i bet it's never gonna mean a single shit to him cause it's all done already. It sucks to keep falling for a love that's not or will never be able to happen again but th love from us to that particular person is so strong that although we know it's too impossible , yet we find it possible and we just can't stop trying cause we get so stubborn and jus waiting for miracles to happen thou. Never in my life have I seen shooting stars then one day I saw it twice . Sigh I wished and prayed so hard for it but still nothing happens . Sad uh?tsk.. Too bad for me though. Ohmygod I realize ever since I stepped into secondary school life, throughout my life there is sure someone I fall deeply w and can never get over with tsk so sad lol. Well I hope things goes smoothly for me after Os and I really wanna quit crying in th middle of th night always out of nowhere :( like seriously sigh . I have to stop this psycho freaky thing LOL hate to wake up in th middle of my sleep and started crying;( like faeces.


Everyday j yearn for you
Everyday I call out for you
Everyday I look out for you
Everyday I was hopig to see you
Everyday I think of you
Everyday my love for you keeps growing
Everyday i wake up and was hoping to get a call or text from you
Everyday I remind myself that you're th only angel in my life and nothin could replace you

complicating bitch , just cut th crap .

life's like this . uh-huh that's th way it is .

chill out , watcha yellin for ? lay back , its all been done before .

and if you could only it it be , you will see . .

i like you th way you are when we used to be one lovely birds . and you're talking to me one on one now and what youve become is somebody else . you're watching your back like you cant relax . you're trying to be cool , but you look like a fool to me .

why did you ever go and make things so complicated ? i see th way you're acting like you're somebody else , gets me frustrated .

i'll do anything for you

i was so wrong for so long , only tryna please myself . i know i should have treated you better . but me and you were meant to last forever .. so let me in give me another chance to really be your girl . mmm whatcha say ? mmm that you only mean well .. how can i live with myself knowing that i let our love go ? i jus gotta let you know . i know what i did wasnt clever , but me and you were meant to last forever . so tell me boy , mmmm whatcha say ? boy tell me what you said ? i dont want you to leave me again . boy tell me what you said ? i really need you in my life cause things aint right ever since you left . im looking for someone who wont pretend and be somebody who is not afraid to say th way they feel about you . and im looking for someone who understands how i feel , someone who can keep me real and who knows always . and im looking for someone who takes me there , wants to share , shows he cares - thinking that you're th one ive been waiting for . could be th one i need ? im looking for someone to share my pain . someone who i can run to , who would stay with me when it rains . someone who i can cry with through th rain . someone who i can trust who's heart is right . dont tell anyone about th way you hold my hand . dont tell anyone about th things that we have planned . wont tell anybody how you turn my world around . i wont tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound . you're gonna catch me if i fall .. i have love you all th while , now it just gets deeper . please understand me dear , love is weird .. i coloured you a valentine , struggled just to stay inside th lines . i really cant believe i lost myself again looking for something crazy beautiful nothing , now im talking in circles again . i wrote a song about your eyes , ate a slice of cherry pie , i cried all night . on a bench inside th park , i'll kiss you slowly in th dark . i'll nvr stop . i didnt mean to hurt you . i just nvr thought we'll fall out of place till like this terrible , and long .

xoxo
kristal

i promise you if we just try , we'll take this wrong and make it right .

im not coming back , i've done something so terrible , im terrified to speak but you'd expect that from me . im mixed up , i'll be blunt . now th rain is just washing you out of my hair , and out of my mind . keeping an eye on th world , were so many thousands of feet off th ground . im over you now im at home in th clouds , towering over your head ..

i thought i can , but i cant .

i thought i forget , but i didnt .

i thought i dont need you , but i do .

i thought i'll be happier , but im just at my worst .

dont you feel th same way too ?

holding on to what i have .

life seems pretty much boring . hmm clubbing , and all that is damn boring alr . so im trying to pick up new habits and hobby . but seems like i cant really find one. ugh i dunno why , but texting you is just pissing me off more . yes i care for you , yes i love you , yes i respect you , yes im being myself . but are you ? are you being yourself ? you arent . how do i know ? cmon .. its wrong to ask that . today supposingly should go out , but im just not in th mood and not up for anything . all i feel is like sitting in my room , lock myself up and jus stare in at my white clean wall . ha wtf . sorry ah if i damn guai lan ah but hell not in th mood for th past few days liao ah . its like , if you dont fucking wanna text me , jus don text sua . all this tipsy stuffs are getting into my mind, and making me so pissed off . i dont even know if should do what i wanted to do for you . im afraid i might jus waste my afford , and you wont appreciate it , or treasure it . in th first lace are we even .... okay , lol wthelll am i crapping man . why am i feeling so worked up about it ? i mean you are nth to me right ... or are you smth so much to me ? that im like this ? maybe when th tear roll down me , i'll know th answer .
whats th dealio about this man ugh bye .